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July 10th, 2006

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05:26 pm - GET ME OUT OF HERE!!
If I ever ever ever hint that I'm coming back to this dinky clump of dirt called a town for more than a month ever again, shoot me. 

There's no shops within walking distance, no "hang out" place like a bubble tea shop or something, no malls, no movie theatres, no tim hortons, nothing, nada, zip.  This morning, I woke up to the sound of cows mooing .__.;;;  The first month, it was ok, the second, alright, entering my third, and I'm a millimetre from snapping.  I have no friends here, no one I know, all the people I meet are high school drop outs with absolutely no goal for their future, and 3/4 of the girls I see are, or have been, pregnant at the matured ages of their teen years.  I'm going insane!!  I hate books and school as much as anyone, but goddammit I'm starting to see the bright side of education, at least enough so you can string together coherent sentences and develop the mental capacity to converse on actual issues of importance other than "omg I love chicks that are wild in bed" X__x;; 

I've seen my best friend a total of 4 days since summer began, FOUR FUCKING DAYS!! and I haven't seen my high school friends at all!!  What kind of summer is this?!  I can't just up and walk to the mall since there are none, I mean even those 1 hour walks to Masonville mall I used to take during the summer were totally fun and a great way to exercise.  I'd sit in Chapters and read the manga for an afternoon or something, then buy an Ice Cap. on my way home.  Here as soon as I step outside it's a highway with cars zooming by, yeah, just what I need, to get mistaken for a hitch-hiker -__-  I didn't see my friends last summer since I was in China (and hounded by damn adults/relatives whom I don't even know how I'm related to 24/7), then from September to April I was at university in Ottawa so again, I didn't get to see my friends although I made some new ones, and now I still can't see them even though it's summer vacation!!  If it weren't for the net linking me to the rest of the world I'd be banging on the walls by now.

For crying out loud I'm dying for this summer to be over with so I can get back to fucking civilization and some intellectually stimulating conversations.

Things with a red check mark applies to me
Things with a blue 'x' do not
Things in parenthesis and in italics are my own comments

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

I miss somebody right now. 

(Not an ex or anything)
I don't watch much TV these days. 

(watch everything on my computer)
I own lots of books. 

(but that doesn't mean I read 'em)
I wear glasses or contact lenses. 

(I think I look better with glasses, so even if I didn't have to I'd still wear fake ones...like Oshitari! XDD)
× I love to play video games

(Never played a video game *gasp!*)
× I've tried marijuana

(Never tried any illegal drugs)
I've watched porn movies. 

(<__< Don't ask)
× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. I believe honesty is usually the best policy. 

(But a few white lies don't hurt I guess)
I curse sometimes. 

(Although I'm trying not to unless something/one's really really making me mad)
× I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. × I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. 

(Only on walks by myself at night)
* * * * *
× I have broken someone's bones. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. 

(Doesn't everyone??)
× I hate the rain

(I love the rain, thunderstorms especially)
I'm paranoid at times. 

(Only if I'm watching a horror movie at home by myself, but once it's over and I switch to another task then the feeling's gone)
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. 

(Just a few small changes, you know, bigger eyes, higher nose (I have no nose bridge, my glasses don't sit right XD), smaller boobs, longer legs, get rid of some excess fat, hmmm.......that's all I believe)
I need/want money right now. 

× I love sushi. × I talk really, really fast. 

(I don't think I do...but some people have told me I do)
× I have fresh breath in the morning. 

(I wish -__-)
I have long hair. × I have lost money in Las Vegas. × I have at least one sibling

(Want an older brother~!!)
I was born in a country outside of the U.S. 

I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. 

(Cosplay counts right?)
× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
× I like the way that I look. 

(<__< I'd like to say I do...but that'd be a lie)
× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months. I am usually pessimistic. 

(Hard not to be in this society, and history isn't really stock full of happy endings is it?)
I have a lot of mood swings.

(I seriously wonder if I have hormonal problems sometimes, it's like one second I'm bawling and the next everything's feeling great)
I think prostitution should be legalized. 

(If they make that choice, why not?)
× I slept with a roommate.
× I have a hidden talent. × I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
× I have a lot of friends.
× I have pecked someone of the same sex. × I enjoy talking on the phone.  

(Ugh no, I hate talking on the phone unless you're either a close close close friend, or there's actually a point to the call, like making an appointment or something.)
× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
× I love to shop and/or window shop

(Depends on what I'm shopping for)
I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal. 

(Trying to fix that habit)
× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a mobile phone. × I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. 

(I don't drink, the smell of alcohol alone makes me want to puke)
I've rejected someone before.
I currently like/love someone. × I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. 

(I want to work in an international organization)
× I want to have children in the future. 

(Oh god no, bring another life into this messed up screwy world? That's just paving a path of pain and suffering for the poor kid. I don't feel like lying to the next generation thanks)
× I have changed a diaper before. × I've called the cops on a friend before. I'm not allergic to anything. 

(Don't think so anyway)
I have a lot to learn. 

(Lol, I think everyone does don't they?)
I am shy around the opposite sex. 

(I suck with guys, really really suck with talking to them. Doesn't surprise me since it's been me and mom at home for 13 years and a complete lack of male contact in my teenage years.)
I'm online 24/7, even as an away message. 

(As long as I have high speed, my internet's always connected)
× I have at least 5 away messages saved. I have tried alcohol or drugs before. 

(Tried the first, but ended up puking my guts out both times. No illegal drugs for me, but over the counter ones yes.)
× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie. I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal. 

(All the time last year lol)
× I enjoy some country music.
I would die for my best friends. × I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
× I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
× I have dated a close friend's ex. × I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys. Democrat. 

× Republican.
× I don't even know what I am. × I am punk rockish. I go for older guys/girls, not younger.

 (Older guys, definitely older, even like...way older. The older ones seem more mature and heaven knows guys take longer to mature usually then the girls)
× I study for tests most of the time. 

(<__< Used to? And hopefully will be resuming that habit again next year)
× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met. × I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s)

× I am comfortable with who I am right now. 

× I have more than just my ears pierced.
× I walk barefoot wherever I can. × I have jumped off a bridge

I love sea turtles. 

(Urr.....why just turtles?)
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.

 (Whatever make up I have just lays there collecting dust, only use 'em for special occasions)
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream. × I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I hate office jobs. × I went to college out of state.
× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro. × I have thrown up from crying too much.
× I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
× I fall for the worst people. × I adore bright colours. × I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
× I can pick up things with my toes. I can't whistle.
I have ridden/owned a horse.

 (Oh I love ridding horses!! One day I'll own one or two.)
I still have every journal I've ever written in. × I talk in my sleep.
I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century. 

(Everyday freaking day.)
× I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. × I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo. × I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
× I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all. If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder. 

(Yes yes yes yes yes oh way more than just one, even if I couldn't get away with it, if I had the means I'd still do it, George Bush you're first on my hit list!)
× I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
× I'm an artist. × I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed. × If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.
× I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes. × I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me. I have more friends on the internet than in real life. 

(Sad isn't it lol, but it makes sense, I mean online you have the whole world open to you as potential friends, while in real life, you can only travel so far.)
I have lived in either three different states or countries.

 (China: Beijing

America: Alabama, California

 Canada: Alberta, Ontario)
× I am extremely flexible. × I love hugs more than kisses

(It would depend on the mood wouldn't it?)
× I want to own my own business. × I smoke. I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else. 

(*sigh* another bad habit)
Nobody has ever said I'm normal. 

(Err....but who ever says to someone else "you're so normal!"??)
Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then. 

(Sad like....Hotel Rwanda)
× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.

 (Oh how I wish!)
I like the way women look in stylized men's suits. 

(And the way pretty boys look in women's clothes...like Kime-hime!)
I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me. 

(I hate displeasing/inconveniencing/dissapointing others, unless I dislike them, then I have a field day making their lives miserable)
× I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before. I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help. 

(My guidance counsellor at school made me go -__-)
I believe in ghosts and the paranormal. 

(I guess....just a bit...I mean anything's possible right?)
× I can't stand being alone

(Hmm...I want to check this....because I honestly do hate being alone, but I've been alone almost all my life so I guess I CAN stand it, just dislike it a lot. It's always been just me and mom, so when she'd be off working and stuff I'd be home alone, and with moving around so much, deep friendship bonds are hard to come by)
I have at least one obsession at any given time. × I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment. 

(Oh god yes....)
I'm a judgmental asshole. 

(*sigh* unfortunately yes....even though I don't show it, usually after the first 10 minutes of meeting someone my mind's made up about them unless they do something drastic later on to change that judgement)
× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
I have travelled on more than one continent. × I sometimes wish my father would just disappear. 

(Err...why father? Haven't seen him in 13 years, visited him last summer though, so it's not like he really bugs me or anything)
I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am. 

(Don't need, but like it, but then again we all like compliments lol)
I am a Libertarian. 

(Is this like being a Liberal?)
I can speak more than one language. 

(Chinese, English, and soon will be improving my French, I will conquer these 3 languages dammit, they're 3 of the 5 official languages of the UN and dammit I'll get fluent if it kills me)
× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
× I would rather read than watch TV. × I like reading fact more than fiction. 

(Depends on my mood.)
I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do. 

(Heck yeah, doesn't ever university student? Lol)
× I have no piercings. × I have spent the night in a train station or other public place. × I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried. 

(O__o...er not that bad...I've disliked being a girl...but never cried over it)
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night. There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it. 

(Everyday!! Lol, is it really that rare? I guess I think about it a lot since my mom's told me before that if she could go back in time and change things she'd make it so I was never born (IN A NICE WAY!!! she didn't mean it to be hurtful trust me ^^;;), so seeing as I was that close to not existing it makes you kind of think)
I like most animals better than most people. 

(Animals (other than humans because we ARE animals too) are so much better)
× I own a collection of retro games consoles. × The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver. × I have hit someone with a dead fish

(O___o wth?)
× I am compulsively honest. × I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired. × I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.
× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders. × I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.
× I dislike milk. × I obsessively wash my hands.
× I always carry something significant around with me. × Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair. × I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother. × I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document. I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird. 

(Majority of North American/Western people anyway, it'd be different in East Asia)
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time. Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed. 

(If they come to me again and again and again and again with the same problem, and only proceed to whine without making any effort to fix the problem.)
× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts. × I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.
× I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it. 

(Not obsessed with history...but do wish for a time machine so I can go back in time when things were less messed up.)
× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car. I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years. 

(And it's still going!!! One more year and it's no longer teen angst!!! HAH!! Then it's...uh...young adult angst? When does angst become clinical depression anyway?)
I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.
× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly. I love to sing. 

(Though I suck at it XD)
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up. × I have a custom-built computer. × I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.
× I've gone skinny-dipping. × I've performed in three plays.
× I enjoy burritos. × I'm Irish and loving it.
× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin! × Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'. 

(Depends on my mood)
× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else. 

(Oh god I wish I had that determination and will power)
I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes. 

× I sleep more than 12 hours a day. I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough. 

(Probably cuz I haven't accomplished too much out of the ordinary...you know, graduate high school, blah blah blah)
× I need more time to myself. 

(Any more and other people might as well not exist on this planet)
I wish I was more open-minded. × I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
I download songs from the internet. 

(All the time!! I buy maybe 1 CD in a year if the corporations are lucky, those greedy bastards raking in billions as millions are starving, even if they just made a million instead of a few billion I might be more sympathetic to the corporations, but those money hungry bottomless pits, give them an inch and they take a mile, hah! Fine then, we'll drill you dry until your the ones begging in the streets)
× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend. × I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.

 (It eneded?!?! What happened?!)
× I love playing Truth or Dare. × I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it. 

(Only when the moods hits)
× Music helps me remember that I am not alone. × Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.
I think this survey is particularly long.
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones. 

(er....well I have RL friends on LJ too <__<)
× I can only hate someone that I love. × I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

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Date:July 11th, 2006 11:39 am (UTC)
Wow, that is one long-ass meme. But then I gues there's nothing else to do in that dinky-clump-of-dirt town :D
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Date:July 12th, 2006 03:52 pm (UTC)
exactly XD
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Date:July 11th, 2006 01:18 pm (UTC)
OOH! You know what would look really KAWAII?
Those glasses and they're like plastic, and a lot of gay guys wear them? You should get those! I was thinking about that today and you'd look totally cute in them!
omg sooooo hyper. Ice Caps are bad, BAD things, hey look! A butterfly! *runs off and chases butterfly*
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Date:July 12th, 2006 04:06 pm (UTC)
O__o plastic glasses don't look good on me cuz their nose pads thingy are attached to the frame and since i don't have a nose bridge it sits reeeeeeeeally close to my eyes (and slips down easily), metal frames for me all the way! (but i'm curious about these ones you say gay guys wear?? got a pic?? XD)
Date:July 11th, 2006 02:45 pm (UTC)
Mou... it's okay. *pats head*
Our memes look quite a bit alike. It's crazy!
I think that next summer, we should get summer jobs together! :)
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Date:July 12th, 2006 04:07 pm (UTC)
oh that'd be so awesome!! it doesn't even matter what job, time flies when u've got a friend to chat with as u work
Date:July 12th, 2006 03:23 pm (UTC)
Poor you...I empathize with your plight, it must really suck to live in the middle of nowhere. If it helps there are 54 days until school starts (well, McGill starts...Sept. 5). Keep on counting down the days!!!-James
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Date:July 12th, 2006 04:09 pm (UTC)
oh i'm counting, i'm counting, just a month and a half to go!

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