December 3rd, 2008
|11:13 am - When courses overlap...essays become easier.|
When you can start taking an essay you wrote for one class and copy/paste portions of it to an essay you're writing for another class and it all fits and makes sense...then you know your classes are beginning to overlap a bit too much. Specializing more in 4th year uni is good...wasting my time on courses talking about the same things isn't.
But at least it saves me time on these essays <__<
(For anyone who's lost a close pet or someone special, do you find yourself trying to keep busy with little time-consuming jobs or just keeping your thoughts bouncing, not allowing it to land on the fact that that pet/person is gone? But then you end up feeling guilty BECAUSE you're not thinking about him/her? I'm so confused...like I don't want to think about my bunny since I'll just end up crying which is messy, not good-feeling and time-consuming, but then I feel guilty because I'm not bawling over him/her and it makes me feel like I'm being cold/uncaring >__<
Bunny in your bunny heaven if you can read this/hear my thoughts I'm still thinking of you, a lot, a lot, a lot. And wherever you are I hope at least you got to finally make good use of that saying "screwing like bunnies" because heaven knows I've deprived you of that for far too long...hope you didn't die from sexual deprivation or something :\)
|Date:||December 3rd, 2008 02:05 pm (UTC)|| |
I had to put one of my dogs to sleep earlier this year. The same day, I went back to work on putting together the floor in my house. In some ways, working made it easier although I still thought about him while I was working. But the same night, I also broke down crying because it's just natural. And the same went on for days and days. I'm still sad when I think about him and the other dogs I've lost. But life goes on and it doesn't mean I care about any of my lost pets less just because I'm not thinking about them all the time. It's really the same with the living too. Just because I'm not thinking of my loved ones all the time doesn't mean I love them less when I'm not thinking of them.
So I would advise taking time to grieve but also enjoy the other things you do when you're not thinking of your bunny.
i wish i was in my forth year. D:
so ready for school to be over. D:
|Date:||December 3rd, 2008 10:00 pm (UTC)|| |
Yeah I can relate on both aspects of your post: all of this specialization seems somewhat redundant,but it useful when preparing essays, studying, etc. I feel like I can just spew all of the neo-liberal crap I've been indoctrinated with over these last 4 years on whim & recite Marx's das kapital-in German! On the 2nd half, I relate to your sentiment of loss & occupying yourself with menial things to subside it: my grandfather died in April of this year, during exams, & I just immersed myself into reading & studying to keep from breaking down until I could go home...I wasn't there for his funeral or anything (at the insistence of my parents, who basically forced me to remain in Montreal)-when I came back in May, the reality set in & I completely lost it...but when we focus on something-anything really,we no longer have time to think of pain or loss & that can be a somewhat welcomed sentiment. I hope that your loss won't just attack you like it did me, but that you are able to eventually accept the reality of loss & take your experiences with your bunny as a moment in time that you will forever appreciate. I know that a lot of people might think that I am going overboard with sentiment over the loss of a pet, but I have lost 2 pets in the past to & the pain can be as explicit & comparable to the loss of a person.-James