April 12th, 2009

[Animals]Pandas-Parent and Child



If I ever do become a mother (heaven forbid) I'd never live up to my mom's standards.  Just as I've been gnawing my insides with worry over what I'm going to do if I can't find a summer job until I go to Japan in September (I have enough money to stay here until the end of June) my phone call to mommy to wish her a happy b-day totally made it all better.  She said if I can't find a summer job I can go home (to her place) for July and August, and she'll pay for the rent for those 2 months (not that she hasn't been paying for everything already for my 4 years of university, minus what I've gotten through my student loans).

I wanted to cry and tell her that I love, love, love her so much and that I feel so damn useless that I can't even find a bloody summer job after 4 years of university and that after all the money she's spent on raising me she still has to spend more when it's about time I should be re-paying her, but on the phone I was such a numb-nut and just "hn"-ed and "okay"-ed the whole time ;A;!!  Thinking back on how much time, money and effort she's put into raising me and putting up with me for 22 years now I think if I was in her position I'd be cursing myself out for being so damned useless T^T

Every single time I run into trouble, she comes to the rescue.  She's like that brick wall that I keep leaning on and I WANT to start being someone SHE can lean on instead, but it's not working >__<  I'm so afraid that by the time I get my act together and finally BE in a position where she can depend on me instead of the other way around she won't even be here anymore ;A;

Mommmmyyyyyyyyy!  Your daughter loves you, she just can't say the words.

妈妈,女儿从小没有用中文对你说过‘我爱你’。 你曾经告诉过我在中国文化里这三个字不是常说的,在我们的文化里‘打是疼骂是爱’。你跟我说,姥姥对你一生也没说过这三个字,你也没有对她说过可是不说不等于不爱。可是现在女儿想对你说,却说不出口,想做些事好能让你知道,却没有能力做得到,急得我眼睛里直流眼泪。本来想毕业了以后,找到了这个去日本教书的工作,终于能让你省点儿心了,没想到临走前还是得依靠你 >__<  女儿怎么好像就老是长不大呢??
[Animals]Sea Otter-Eh?

Adobe Premier Pro CS3 audio import formats

Does anyone use Adobe Premier Pro CS3?  I was playing around with it today and found that it doesn't support MP3 audio format, which is odd since the program's 'Help' section says it does.  Anyone had this problem before?  It's kind of annoying since 99% of the audios I have are in MP3 format >__<

[EDIT]: Good grief, after fiddling with this program for an entire afternoon I finally got it to accept MP3 format audios...