February 2nd, 2007

[Hamilton]Lafayette

Hectic life = Depression?

I've noticed that whenever workload increases/piles up, my angst/depression factor goes up too...and I'm starting to think there's a link.  Whenever there's several assignments due all in a row (exams as well), or there's several days when there's a ton of stuff going on and I feel like I'm running back and forth in circles my mind takes it's own little vacation down the darker side of life...it really needs to start choosing its time for these little vacations better.  These are the times when thoughts like;
"What am I doing here?"
"Why am I here?"
"Why do I bother?"
"What's the point?"
"This world's messed up."
"So much crap that's not right."
"Why can't people just be good/nice?"
"Life sucks."

starts popping into my head and plays round and round again like a broken dvd player and I just want to curl up on my bed, pull the blanket over my head, play some emo music and cry a flood into the apartment.  BUT DAMMIT I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR THIS!!  I'VE GOT THINGS TO DO!! T____________T