December 15th, 2006
|06:56 pm - *Muttermutter*|
Hmmm....well Intro. to Int.'l Dev. exam tomorrow, then Understanding Politics exam on Tuesday, then all done for the semester~ Can't wait, can't wait, the only bummer is that another semester begins in 2 weeks -__- Haven't been sleeping too well these days, don't really know why, maybe exam anxiety? My CGPA right now is at 4.2, I need to pull it up to a 4.5, which means I need at the very least one C- and four C+'s, I'm hoping I did really well on that Chinese exam to pull my mark up lol, ah Chinese Chinese, never thought I'd come to depend on you for a fail or pass.
Remember at the beginning of the year when it was all "DO YOUR BEST!!" and "I CAN DO IT!!" and "WORK HARD!!!" and "WE'RE GONNA CHANGE THE WORLD!!!"? Yeah, well, by the time exams roll around those get flushed down the toilet and the motto changes to "OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGPANICPANICPANICPANICPANICOMGOMGOMGWHAT'STHISTHEORYANDTHATDEFINITION?!??!??!?!??! AJSKDHA:KJHFJADKFJDRTEYAWDSKHF!!!!!!!!" Thus as to why exams do nothing but induce stress. Seriously, who remembers stuff that they crammed specifically to pass exams for? What you remember is the everyday learnings in class, not the day-of cramming for exams. And with all the crap they try to shove into your brain in university times 5 classes/semester, I doubt we remember at least 50% for each class; if we did we'd all be super-geniuses by now. *sigh* Honest to goodness, life in the 21st Century, in one word, sucks.
[EDIT]: Well, it's 3:20am, and I'm still studying. There's about 80 pages of powerpoint slides (4 slides on each page) that I have to look through (the prof used powerpoint for his lectures and we were allowed to download them and print them out). The good part is, going through page after page after page of political stuff discussing this development theory and that development strategy, what we talked about in class is slowly coming back to the surface of my memory (modern-day politics kind of got buried after watching so many ancient Chinese tv. series). The bad part is, the more concepts I find that I have to memorize for fear it'll be on the exam, the more I'm panicking. I mean hear me out, here's a list of just a few of the concepts I've come across tonight already;
-import-substitution industrialization (ISI),
-health and development,
-foreign direct investment,
-woman in/and development/gender equality,
-IMF and World Bank involvement in development,
-Human Development Index,
-measures of poverty,
-structural adjustment programs,
-the growth of democracy,
-types of democracy,
and so on and so forth.....OMG I'M GOING TO DIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank goodness there's no essay at least on the exam tomorrow, just some multiple choice, short answer, and paragraph answer questions. I've said this over and over again, and I've seen all of the people on my f-list who are also going through exam time right now say it time and again, butI CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS TO BE OVER!!!!! Although I have to admit, I feel a grudging sense of smug satisfaction when I talk politics to others and I start drawing upon these concepts, that sense of "holy crap I actually remembered something useful!" is more rewarding than I'd like to admit. Ok, back to studying~
ah that happens.. >.<;
beginning of semester I was thinking.. I gotta work harder, study and not be lazy...
then exams roll by...its cramming, all nighters (don't you love them :D :D) and procastination..(you gotta love this too)
but the best part is the feeling of freedom afterwards~~
ganbatte Mengya *hugs*
Ah yes the freeeeeeeeeedom, it seems so far awaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!! I hate how when it's down to the last one or two exams and you can just about feel the freedom, but you've got to cross those last barrier(s), grrrrrrrrr...