November 5th, 2006
|03:26 pm - 难道我错了？|
为什么想做好人这么难。为什么想救人一命竟然能提起这么多的问题。 难道我错了？ 世界真的是好复杂。 在 六十亿得人口里，真的是每一个人都有自己的想法。 到底每个人终究是 单独得。不管多好的朋友,不管多爱的爱人,他们还是他们, 永远不会是我。既然如此,我又为何把朋友看昨天, 把我一生都奉献给这个世界呢? 我何苦选择一个让我夜夜不能眠的program? 我何不像其他我的同年人似的, 说说笑笑, 自由自在得? 我为什么做不到? 为什么天天看着这个世界就不由不觉得留下了眼泪? 我为什么要这样的跟我自己过不去? 把朋友们都得罪了不说, 还让我自己变得这么郁闷。难道想当个清廉的政治家, 唯一的办法就是不要让任何人靠近我的内心吗? 真是好痛苦。这几天我感觉我流的泪水比林黛玉还要多 D= 真想不到还有那个职业能像政治一样的让一个人如此寒心而且心好像天天都被千刀万剐似的。人生活的真是累啊。
aww.. what's wrong? i can't really read it, but i could read some of it (gasp! mandarin class works!!)
sounds like you're upset..
Lol, yay for Mandarin class!! wOOt!! Just a bunch of stuff happening this week, maybe it's cuz deadlines are rushing up and exams are in a month, so everyone's on edge, including myself, but yeah. Definitely feeling like politics is ruining my life, and not just outlook-wise either ;__;
aww.... yeah polisci is a depressing program to be in.. if you wanna talk about it, feel free! :)
|Date:||November 5th, 2006 11:07 pm (UTC)|| |
Although I have no idea what happened, yet I could guess a few. I myself has been on a research program for like more than half a year - it was not smooth though, and I complained all the time from the beginning. It's about rights of compulsory education of migrant children in China - you see I'm a native Chinese. I'm not sure at all whether it would succeed at last or not, but I can say that I do not regret at all. What you are doing now deserves applauds, since only in this way can the world becomes cleaner and better. Cheer up and go on!!
"You've got to take chances for what you care about."
Thank you =^-^= Your encouragment means a lot to me *hugs*
|Date:||November 13th, 2006 10:22 pm (UTC)|| |