|11:05 am - Lazier and lazier|
you know, sometimes i look back on the elementary school days and wonder how the hell i managed to go through summer vacation not doing anything. i mean i can remember literally 2 months of doing nothing except sleep till noon, get up, watch tv, eat, sleep again. now it's like, i can't even make it through a few days without doing something "productive".
this past thursday and friday i didn't go to school nor did i have to work, so basically 2 days off , and saturday (today) i don't work either, sunday (tomorrow) i work, then monday is victoria day.
for thursday and friday i did nothing, just got up and went on the computer all day, literally. but today, i'm feeling all blah and pissed off that i wasted 2 days doing nothing >.< it's like, the more days i don't do anything, the lazier i get cuz i really don't want to do anything now, but at the same time, i get more angry at myself for wasting so much time.
i can't even remember the feeling of not having to worry about deadlines or due dates for projects or test coming up or something! nowadays there's always something that i'm suppose to do, whether it be an essay to write, a poster to make, pictures to draw, applying to osap, replying to universities, even little things like going to the bank, packing for an oncoming trip, fixing something around the house...ARGH! and when mom's home, if i'm on the computer, i'm always so tense just waiting for her to explode at me for not doing anything productive and just wasting my life away >.<
and now it's not even just the mom nagging, it's me nagging at myself if i don't DO something. Grrr...
Current Mood: frustrated